Ive tried to make amends
Letting go of the past
But its taken so much within
Ive tried to make amends
Letting go of the past
But its taken so much within

Each wind I stay strong
While you try to force my bend
And when I try to grow
You take your chance to cut me down
Is this what you wanted
As I reflect on the times we've shared
Seems so unfair
Getting the short end over and over again
From the ones that I love
From the ones I gave my care
From everyone I've given all that I could
While the sit there and bare
From the ones that I love
From the ones I gave my care
From everyone I've given all that I could
While the sit there and bare

Your disrespect for being who I am
A chance for you to take advantage of me
That only knows
To show in the face of pain or doubt
His heart of gold

And how many times
Must a shell drown back and forth in the tide
Before it withers to a grain of sand (our relationship)
And how many times
Must I take each lashing
Before I can no longer stand (my crucifix)

Each abuse
Is a nail to my hand
Broken down to my knees
I allow you all to take me for granted
I stay humble and bite my tongue
As I choke on my pride
And suppress everything that I feel inside (That I feel inside)

Then pain molds anger
Some days
It's so hard to resist
Putting this fist through a face
Give in and let the devil win
But I can't
I can't

So as my father has
Ive forgiven you regardless
Don't force our memory in this life
To wither and be swept with the rest

And how many times
Must a shell drown back and forth in the tide
Before it withers to a grain of sand (our relationship)
And how many times
Must I take each lashing
Before I can no longer stand

The end has come
Our world is withering
Father and I are here
Still no one can see
Our patience is withering
But like our souls its undying
So ill take whatever you throw till the very end
When you see the truth in what I've told

Consciousness
Is the voice of the soul
And through my soul and dreams
I am with our father
Trying to lead you all home